Don’t you dare tell me nothing matters. Everything matters. Every drop of rain, every ray of sunlight, every wisp of cloud matters and they matter because I can see them and if I can see them then they can see me and I know that there’s an entire world that cares out there, hiding behind a world that doesn’t, afraid to show who it really is and with or without you, I will drag that world out. Until we all live in it.
— I think my heart has more to say than I will ever know.
So, what if I wasn’t here anymore?
I’m at peace with myself. I grow so much every year…never wanted to grow up too fast but I felt like I did just that, and maybe that’s a good thing. I’m simple and I don’t ask for much, I’m at peace with who I am.
Picked you up from the airport and you were so tired, we went to bed early and you fell asleep before me. I stayed up for a little and watched you sleep, watched your face and tried to memorize every part of it… most of me was amazed at what I let myself feel, for you, and a little part of me was scared that I’d never look at anybody that way again. Things were so simple.. I lay there looking at you and could hardly believe that I’d found someone who understood me in the way that you did, could hardly believe that I’d let myself love someone so much. That, that’s why I thanked you for loving me… for letting me realize that I have it in me to love in that way.
I’m at peace.
I’ve learned that no matter what happens, or how bad it seems today, life does go on, and it will be better tomorrow. that you can tell a lot about a person by the way he/she handles these three things: a rainy day, lost luggage, and tangled Christmas tree lights. I’ve learned that regardless of your relationship with your parents, you’ll miss them when they’re gone from your life. I’ve learned that making a “living” is not the same thing as making a “life.” I’ve learned that life sometimes gives you a second chance. I’ve learned that you shouldn’t go through life with a catcher’s mitt on both hands; you need to be able to throw something back. I’ve learned that whenever I decide something with an open heart, I usually make the right decision. I’ve learned that even when I have pains, I don’t have to be one. I’ve learned that every day you should reach out and touch someone. People love a warm hug, or just a friendly pat on the back. I’ve learned that I still have a lot to learn. I’ve learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.
Just like rain… washed away everything and started me anew.